{"id":1231,"date":"2018-06-26T18:10:38","date_gmt":"2018-06-26T18:10:38","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.coryjaw.com\/wp\/?p=1231"},"modified":"2018-10-19T07:58:58","modified_gmt":"2018-10-19T07:58:58","slug":"eternal-life-is-death-drive","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.coryjaw.com\/wp\/2018\/06\/26\/eternal-life-is-death-drive\/","title":{"rendered":"Eternal Life is Death drive"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Moi the Unwell<\/em>: I felt I was coming to terms with her to some extent, trying to see her as the “right one”, for now.\u00a0<\/span>I was even able to put all those attractive women I saw at the theater last night aside to focus. That’s partially due to the fact that I have certain assumptions about the women on this island now, and I think my lifelong singleness has been mostly evidence that what I think of these islanders is correct.<\/div>\n
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They look beautiful often. They spend a lot of time on their appearances too but in reality, beyond the mask they’re little more than what meets the eye. I wanted to call them “monkeys” ’cause we’re all primates and they don’t embrace their humanness enough. T<\/span>hey’re completely satisfied being monkey.<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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I guess I am as well but at least I realize there is more there. I can’t be proud of myself here. It’s sort of not even a choice for me or for people like me.\u00a0<\/span>It’s the curse of “consciousness”. I don’t see now how it serves us. I can’t think of it any other way.<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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At the end of it all we go to the same place, us and the primates, and the leaves that fall from the trees, the bacteria etcetera.\u00a0<\/span>Back to where we all came from.<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Some women have no sense of touch.\u00a0<\/span>Some women have tinged taste buds.<\/div>\n
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I’m inspired by many beautiful things, but am I a beautiful thing? Plenty of beautiful things are fragile. Humans. Humans break.<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Moi the Unwell<\/em>: Rememeber that time Nordon picked up a black olive and said I was the same color?<\/span><\/div>\n
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Moi the Unwell<\/em><\/span>: I love myself way more than I love him, and today I thought about killing myself.<\/div>\n
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Sometimes a thought is a climax, a thought-gasm. I haven’t came in days. Is this what it’s all worth? Is this that special “thing” for people like us? Is this “It<\/a>“?<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Magoo<\/em>: Wait, you thought about killing urself<\/span>?<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Nevermind, you just tryna be some kind of poetic ass mf.<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Moi the psycho<\/em>: Nah, I’ve thought about killing myself a lot of times, you didn’t know that!?!??\u00a0<\/span>Ngga, you know who the fk I am!<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Magoo<\/em>: Kurt Cobain, okay.\u00a0<\/span>Hahahaha.<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Moi the psycho<\/em>: Cobain can’t use the N-word like that. Also that was a Kanye reference up there.<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Magoo<\/em>: Lol s<\/span>heeeeet.<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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You haven’t done enough yet bru, you can’t leave.\u00a0<\/span>Don’t cop out. Don’t be a pussycat. There’s still work to do b4 we can leave this. You haven’t left your mark yet. You’ve been marked, but if you leave now where’s the courage in that? They win again.<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Moi the Unwell<\/em>: I’m not sure I really care about them anymore. I can’t.<\/div>\n
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Magoo<\/em>:\u00a0<\/span>It’s your time young homie. Get yo ass up on out of the house and confront the world<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n

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Moi the Unwell<\/em>:\u00a0Only when it’s over will we truly be able to appreciate it.<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Magoo<\/em>: It will be appreciated inshAllah<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Moi the Unwell<\/em>: Wait, pussycats cop out??\u00a0<\/span>Since when??????????<\/div>\n
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Magoo<\/em>: Since always bruhhh<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Moi the Unwell<\/em>:\u00a0<\/span>Such a cute fur ball.\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/div>\n
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Moi the Unwell<\/em>:\u00a0So let me ask then, is living and feeling good not living?\u00a0<\/span>Don’t deny yourself habibi.\u00a0<\/span>I’m incredibly ironic AND silly.<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Moi the Unwell<\/em>: You ever wonder what Pat (SNL) could have done\/did for\/to the trans movement?<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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\u00a0Magoo<\/em>:\u00a0<\/span>Be gone AAron. I banish you to the outer realms of subjectivity!!! You necrotic deconstructive nihilistic parasite!<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Moi the Unwell<\/em>: There is no Aaron.<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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This hijabi girl came into sb<\/a> today dressed like Eminem cuz she didn’t wear her hijab lol.\u00a0<\/span>Grey hoodie and cap with sweat pants lol.<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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“\u30b0\u30c3\u30c9 \u30fb\u30e9\u30c3\u30af”\u00a0– Shintaro Sakamoto<\/p>\n

“Le Bleury” – Animalie<\/p>\n

“Margery, My First Car” – Vulfpeck<\/p>\n

“Bank Account” – Louis Cole<\/p>\n

not a stanza in site<\/strong><\/h6>\n

“Don’t Run Into The Dark So Quick” – Jon Bap<\/p>\n

“Lava Lamp” – Thundercat<\/p>\n

“No Sass” – Photay<\/p>\n

“Gemini” – Snarky Puppy<\/p>\n

“What WIll It Be?” – Louis Cole<\/p>\n

“Entertain Me” – Tigran Hamasyan<\/p>\n

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“Friend Zone” – Thundercat<\/p>\n

“Hero Town” – Vulfpeck featuring Michael Bland<\/p>\n

“Like A Match” – Louis Cole<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Though something tells me I should write something easier: Anti-Poem Moi the Unwell: I felt I was coming to terms with her to some extent, trying to see her as the “right one”, for now.\u00a0I was even able to put all those attractive women I saw at the theater last\u2026 Continue reading<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":1271,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[55,13],"tags":[89,88,87,90,85],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.coryjaw.com\/wp\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1231"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.coryjaw.com\/wp\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.coryjaw.com\/wp\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.coryjaw.com\/wp\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.coryjaw.com\/wp\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1231"}],"version-history":[{"count":49,"href":"https:\/\/www.coryjaw.com\/wp\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1231\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1572,"href":"https:\/\/www.coryjaw.com\/wp\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1231\/revisions\/1572"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.coryjaw.com\/wp\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/1271"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.coryjaw.com\/wp\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1231"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.coryjaw.com\/wp\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1231"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.coryjaw.com\/wp\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1231"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}